One day
last week my husband came home and I was in a mood. Not long after he had
walked in the door, I said something to him that could easily have started an
argument. Being the good man that he is, he did not react to the comment, but apologized
and we continued our evening. It was not much later that I once again heard
myself trying to start an argument. I knew what I was saying was wrong; I just
could not seem to help myself. Once again, my husband defused the situation and
asked me, “Emily, what’s wrong? You seem to be upset tonight: do you want to
talk about it?” Finally I broke down and apologized. I explained that earlier
that day I had gone from anger to crying to joy all over the course of a half
hour so it must be hormone related and should pass in a few days. Because he is
a very understanding man, he was able to show me lots of grace for the next few
days until the hormones passed.
In
Matthew 22, many religious leaders come to Jesus with questions they think will
trick Him into saying something they can use to throw Him in jail. They ask him
about the law, about paying taxes, about their religious ancestors, and more.
Jesus, however, does not miss a beat. He answers each question without
hesitation in a way that is both truthful and does not incriminate Him.
Finally, He addresses the root of the religious leaders’ disbelief by asking, “What
do you think about the Messiah? Whose Son is He?” They reveal that they believe
the Messiah is a man rather than God. Jesus then forces them to confront that
disbelief by showing in the Scriptures that the Messiah is God. The religious
leaders then chose to continue in their disbelief and refuse to acknowledge the
Messiah as God.
When I
question God, what is the root of my disbelief? Sometimes I may question if God
is really listening to my prayers. Will He really be there for me when I share
the gospel with someone I know? Are my prayers really as important as everyone
else? Do I really have to work to follow Christ like the Bible says or is just believing
He exist enough? If I am honest with myself, the root of most of my disbelief
is my own selfish desire not to do anything uncomfortable. I do not want to be
held responsible for what I pray for or sharing the gospel with other people.
Sometimes its root is the fear of making mistakes. Sometimes it is a lack of
confidence that I am who God says that I am. The Lord wants to help us find the
root of our disbelief so that we may overcome it and not get caught up in silly
questions.
God,
help me not to question You. Help me to admit my disbelief and admit the root
of that disbelief so that I may get rid of it. Thanking You for Your patience with
me as I work to be the child you deserve. Amen.
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